Well under a very good and insightful suggestion from a great friend and mother of 4 (Mrs. Horton) :)
As I have been wondering how best to come back from my very long hiatus from blogging....what would be my best subject to start off blogging again?? I soon decided nothing could be very more personal and important to me than to blog about my "Better Half"...thats right...My "Better Half"...who is probably not who you think it is.
You see the way I look at it... Austin, my 11 year old son is my better half...because he is after all 1/2 of me, My genes, My blood, My DNA, My personality traits both Good & Bad, My looks...My Sense of humor and so on...Everyday I truly see more and more of how much he is a truly a part of me in every sense of the word.... Whereas my loving and adorable husband is just that...my loving and sweet partner in life...a Wonderful and Splendid thing all in its own...but not the same as someone who came from me and who I helped to create. You fellow Mom's & Warriors out there... you get it right? :)
So for my first of many blogs I decided it very appropriate to blog about my sweet little boy Austin...(because I cant possibly fit all the things I love about this little man in one blog!)
I thought I would start simple and share just a few things about my life with my son, Austin Patrick-Smith-Misuraca.
Austin Patrick Smith came excitedly into this world on August 19, 1997 at 12:15 PM. It was a Tuesday morning when I went into labor and my labor was actually rather short as it only lasted for a few hours. I remember being so excited and scared at the same time that day he was born. Would I would I be a able to be a Good ...wait no..a GREAT mother to this sweet, precious little boy??
I really feel looking back on that special day, that those "birth pains" that I felt were a representation of how much I would soon discover just how much and how deeply you could love another human being. Truthfully it was frightening to me just how much I immediately felt connected to Austin and that I loved this little baby boy so much. I soon realized within a few hours just what lengths I would go to always ensure his happiness and safety in this world....
This day was about a beginning of our journey together as mother and son.
I have always nick-named Austin my "special surprise"...or my "special stuff" and my greatest accomplishment. He truly taught me... a young lady, how to challenge herself like she never had before and to transform myself into a young woman, mother, cook, caretaker, friend, and so much more...
I learned from Austin the true meaning of Patience...
What it means to give 100% of yourself to someone without expectation....
To be truly Selfless...Giving up selfish and self serving thoughts and agendas...
And most importantly ....the lesson of SURRENDER...yes...how to truly surrender to those things which I cannot control (life in general)...and to go with things versus fighting against them. This was one of my biggest lessons and it took some time that one for sure .... :)
I don't pretend that my learning is finished...I know there are still lessons to be learned...and I look forward to Austin continuing to teach these to me as my child and son. I look forward to years more with him of shared learning, playing, and enjoying all of these with my most special and wonderful person who came into my world 11 years ago,,,,my little boy, Aussie. :)
A little side note....
Austin .....Dad and I are soooo very proud of you and how hard you have worked this past week on your special assignment for school. We know that you have had hard times,,,challenges...but you stayed with it...you didn't give up...and for that we are so proud of you and all your hard work!!!
We both knew you would do a great job because you are so CREATIVE and SMART and a TERRIFIC READER too!!
Dad & I want you to know that we understand that sometimes you feel like things are harder for you than for others...
We want you to know that we Appreciate & Respect that you have chosen to keep working hard, that you work extra hard to keep a Great Attitude and most importantly ...Austin that even though there times you felt bad you Never Gave Up on trying to Do the Best "You Can Do"....because that is all Dad and I ever hope for or expect from you....
For you to do "The best YOU" ...Austin can do each day!!
Love Always,
Mom & Dad
2 comments:
Goodness girl, this post about Austin has brought me to tears...and Enya playing in the background seriously does not help. As I read this, I was so moved...it was so profound, and real, and raw....Austin is so very special and I know he faces several challenges but I hope Austin knows that my own children face their own challenges as well and he is not alone. Please let him know that I am so very proud of him that like Sydney and Gavin, he gets up everyday to face another day of this god awful world and venture out extremely vulnerable, and tell him that it cannot be easy but that every day he comes home to us, like Sydney and Gavin, that they have conquered another day and not only are we proud as parents, but Jehovah is proud. Kristen you are an amazing mom. I don't really think I know anyone that has such a self-sacrificing spirit when it comes to their children. Austin, you are one lucky kid to have a great mama. And Kristen, Austin has worked so hard, you should be proud!
Cute blog - Your a good mom!
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